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please don’t write me as a ghost girl,
all blurry lines and faded features
that caricature themselves into the minds
of those that think they see me--

i am not a canvas.
my life is not a blank sheet for you
to paint your vision across,
and i have no wires in my bones--
you cannot pose me so i’ll catch the light
just so,
like a kaleidoscope of clever quirks
and tragic backstories;

i am written in the words i discard
when i write bad poetry at 3am, and if you look,
you can find me echoed back to you
in my all time top five favorite movies.

i am the way my hands hurt
when i get nervous;
i am the urge to speak italian,
even though after a year of classes, i can barely
say hello;
i am the calmness that hits
when i smell cigarettes, even though
i’ve never smoked,
and i am the grudges that have lingered
because i forget to let things go,
and i am the passive-aggressive comments
that i should be sorry for, but
never really am.

if you want, you can trace your pen along
the creases of my skin,
the slouch of my spine;
you can read my past in old photo albums
and taste my lips at midnight
and listen to the stories that i whisper in the dark
but when the sun hits us in the morning,
neither of us will light up the room
in a cacophony of kaleidoscopic beauty;
we will be piles of bone and sinew and sighs,
with morning breath and books to finish and work to do.
we are not ghost people.
kiss me anyway,
and smile when i say hello.
this poem is maybe kind of trite? but i got up in the middle of the night last night to write like half of it down before i forgot, so i felt obligated to finish it. the title is a quote from The Brothers Bloom (which, incidentally, is one of my all time top five favorite movies).

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Given 2013-08-24
a lie that tells the truth by *aprilwednesday has, as the suggester notes, a refreshingly contemporary voice. ( Suggested by tiganusi and Featured by neurotype )
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Yellow-Gray Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2014
I host an open mic poetry event and would like your permission to read this piece, with full credit to you, of course?
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2014   Writer
oh my gosh, yes of course! i'm honored you'd want to read it :)
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:iconadagiobunny:
Adagiobunny Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2014  Student Writer
"i am" has such a quiet strength. a well deserved DD! :heart:
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2014   Writer
it really does. thank you! :huggle:
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Adagiobunny Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2014  Student Writer
:hug:
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SurrealCachinnation Featured By Owner Sep 28, 2013   Writer
Hi there!  :wave:

I have borrowed the wonderful title of your piece for an AWESOME project that uses titles of existing deviations to form the lines of a Found Poem. The idea is to pay attention to titles, which can make or break a piece, and to give exposure to as many deviants as possible.

If you would like to see the poem, you can read it here.

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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2013   Writer
thanks for letting me know! your poem's beautiful :)
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SurrealCachinnation Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2013   Writer
Thank you!  I'm glad you enjoyed it.  :aww:
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:iconnamida713:
Namida713 Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013
Lovely poetry and a well-deserved DD. Congrats <3
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
thank you :love:
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:iconnamida713:
Namida713 Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2013
no, thank you <3
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:icon12freddofrogs:
12Freddofrogs Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013
It's beautiful.
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
thanks so much :heart:
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:iconsmallsmiles:
smallsmiles Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013
Not trite-- beautiful. :nod: I enjoyed it very much!
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
thank you! :heart:
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:iconneonsquiggle:
neonsquiggle Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I love this tremendously. Your words are so powerful.
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
thank you so much. i'm a big fan of your writing, i actually thought i was watching you already - fixing that now :heart:
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:iconneonsquiggle:
neonsquiggle Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Wow, oh my gosh. I can't believe it; your words are so much more brilliant than mine. This is such an honor. Thank you~

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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2013   Writer
are you kidding me? your writing is freaking BEAUTIFUL :love:
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:iconneonsquiggle:
neonsquiggle Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Aww, that is so incredible to hear. Your writing is by far the lovelier though; and thank you! 

:huggle:
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silvermoon442 Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This is simply beautiful.
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
thank you so much :heart:
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silvermoon442 Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're welcome!! :)
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:icons1lentknyte:
S1lentknyte Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Traditional Artist
This is great.  The feelings that are passed through the words are fantastic.
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
thank you so much :heart:
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:icons1lentknyte:
S1lentknyte Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2013   Traditional Artist
:)
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Kinglorshi Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013  Student Writer
Excellent choice of words - it has wonderful imagery and metaphors n' such as well.

Congratulations on the DD.
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
thanks very much! :aww:
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:iconkinglorshi:
Kinglorshi Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2013  Student Writer
No problem.
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tblackheart Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
love this. 
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
thank you!
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1sammyfan Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013  Professional Photographer
This piece paints such painful pictures with its prose.  Very well-written.  Congrats on the DD!    :icongetwellsoonplz:
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
thank you so much! :love:
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:iconladynaevia:
ladynaevia Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I love The Brothers Bloom... amazing movie. And this is a lovely piece of writing.
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
it really is :love: thank you so much!
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Blood-Red-Cure Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is a really beautiful poem! The metaphors are especially beautiful. Congrats on the DD.
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
thank you so much! :heart:
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Blood-Red-Cure Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Welcome.
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AgonizingSwordfish Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
Congratulations on the Daily Deviation :huggle:
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
thank you! :tighthug:
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AgonizingSwordfish Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2013  Hobbyist Photographer
You're welcome :hug:
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ninamaxine Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013
fantastic
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
thank you!
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:iconninamaxine:
ninamaxine Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2013
absolutely
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:iconwildbeasttamerdoesmc:
One word:
AWESOMESAUCE.
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
and what a wonderful word it is! thank you! :)
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:iconwildbeasttamerdoesmc:
Welcome :D
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:iconhexocain:
hexocain Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
God yes. <3
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:iconaprilwednesday:
aprilwednesday Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013   Writer
:heart:
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:iconarteriumchoatius:
ArteriumChoatius Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2013  Student General Artist
It is good :) (Smile) 
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